Hier is dit – my getuienis van so paar jaar gelede. Dit vertel nie net my storie nie, maar ek het gepoog om so bietjie meer inligting te verskaf oor wat ek geleer het tydens my tyd in die “donker” van okkultisme. Ek hoop dit sal iemand kan help, of net mense se oë laat oopgaan teenoor wat om ons aangaan elke dag. Jammer, dis in engels, maar ek is seker meeste van julle sal regkom… Dankie ma, vir jou rotsvaste liefde en onbuigbare geloof – jy het al sulke harde bene moes kou in jou lewe en ek het destyds die feit ignoreer dat ek daartoe bygedra het. En dankie Heather… vir alles.
My path away from God started way back when I was still walking the path of God. I grew up in a little town in Northern Natal called Vryheid, in a very strict Dutch Reformed household. I religiously (no pun intended) attended Sunday-school, and “graduated” from “katkisasie” top of my class. I virtually knew the Bible backwards, and thought I could discern what God was telling me through His written Word. I wanted to know more though, and specifically, more about the enemy. I’ve always had a keen interest in anything mystical and paranormal, and because my church teachers could not tell me much about the occult, I started researching things myself, without any guidance.
In the mere two years before I met Heather in Port Elizabeth, I had amasses quite a bit of information, and because I was bitter at that stage of the way some people had been treating me, I started lashing back with my new knowledge. I astral-projected and spied on people, sent what was known as “thought-forms” to cause mischief and misery to those who had done something to me, travelled the spiritual dimension and saw the most amazing things. I knew in the back of my mind that these “thought-forms” that I dealt with were in fact messenger demons, but the occult has a way of twisting the truth so that it sounds acceptable. Before I knew it, I had hair down to between my shoulders, was delighting in gothic heavy metal, wore black all the time and rode a motorbike called “El Muerte” which is Hispanic for “Death”, or sometimes used to name the “Grim Reaper”.
I learned a lot about the history, myths, hierarchy and powers of both demons and angels, and would like to share some of that knowledge. It is helping me now to recognise their works and to guard against them, as I’m sure it will help you as well.
To understand about demons a little better, one has to understand a bit about angels as well, and for that one has to look to a time before the physical universe was created, before there was time, matter or light. The only presence in existence would have been the Trinity of God the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. God wanted Himself to be known to others, so the first creation work by Him before creation as we know it, was of the spiritual dimension, the creation of spiritual beings, called angels. We have proof of this in Job where, talking about creation, it says: “The morning stars sang together and all the sons of God shouted for joy.” These “morning stars” and “sons of God” refer to angels, therefore we know that they were already there when our physical world was created. Among them was one who was created first, who ruled other angels, the highest ranking and most powerful, the embodiment of all WISDOM and was the most perfect, the most beautiful of God’s creation. Lucifer was a cherub, the highest of angels, always associated with the very presence of God. The name Lucifer means “shining one”. That did not last though, for over a period of time, God found unrighteousness in him. This unrighteousness, or sin, was not due to external temptation, because Lucifer was in the presence of God, and God did not create sin. To say that the sin was already within Lucifer is inaccurate also, as Lucifer was created perfect. He was totally responsible for his own sin, which boils down to pride. In Isaiah 14:13-14 you will find Lucifer’s sin in the five “I wills” as they are known. This can again be summarised as the desire to act independently of God – my way over God’s way (does that sound familiar?). God was merciful, as He still is, and He allowed this to happen over some time, to give Lucifer some grace to repent. We know that God judges pride, even hates it. It is among the seven things that are an abomination to God, which are:
Haughty (proud to the point of arrogance) eyes
A lying tongue
Hands that shed innocent blood
A heart that devises wicked plans
Feet that run rapidly to evil
A false witness who utters lies and
One who spreads strife among brothers
Pride is deceiving and dangerous, because it
Twists your thinking,
It perverts your thinking and
It will make your thinking ridiculous.
It is not surprising then that ultimately — after the time of mercy went by and Lucifer did not repent — Lucifer fell and God punished him. When Lucifer fell, he became Satan. He was Lucifer, the shining one; however, because of his own pride, he became Satan, the adversary, the opponent. Because of God’s direct judgment on him, when Lucifer became Satan he was forced to leave the presence of God. Apparently [from all that we know], that was:
The first rebellion — the first disharmony — the first sin in the universe
When Lucifer fell and became Satan:
His entire nature changed [probably] instantaneously (he did not change in degrees), he became totally (not partially) evil, and he became the embodiment of evil — he totally hated God and he totally hated good.
He became a totally different person; he was created a new person (a brand new creature) and he was perverted.
Lucifer’s whole thinking was totally twisted; it was so twisted that it became ridiculous when he actually thought that he could overthrow his Creator, God.
What is interesting to me is the attitude of God toward the fall of Lucifer. First, we have to say God judged Lucifer’s sin, and He judged it severely. Satan will suffer the eternal consequences of his sin, because for eternity Satan is doomed; God does not have a plan for Satan to get out of the mess he is in.
However, it seems to me that God was in mourning over Lucifer once he fell:
How you have fallen from heaven, O star of the morning, son of the dawn! (Isaiah 14:12)
Notice that God is using His old, given names for Lucifer (O star of the morning, son of the dawn). I believe this is an indication that God is mourning and grieving over the fall of Lucifer, because this was not what God wanted for Lucifer.
When Satan sinned, apparently he persuaded one third of the angels to come with him and defect:
And his tail swept away a third of the stars of heaven and threw them to the earth. (Revelation 12:4)
To get an idea of how many angels there were to start with, we can look at various references in the Bible to angel numbers:
Jesus referred to twelve legions of angels (144,000 angels):
“Do you think I cannot call on My Father, and He will at once put at My disposal more than twelve legions of angels?” (Matthew 26:53)
The apostle John said that he saw a large number of angels:
Then I looked, and heard the voice of many angels, numbering thousands upon thousands, and ten thousands times ten thousand. (Revelation 5:11)
What is ten thousand times ten thousand? That equals 100 million angels. Now add the thousands upon thousands for the sum of the many angels that John saw = [a minimum of] 100 million + thousands more!
This inestimable number of angels is clarified in the Book of Hebrews:
But you have come to Mount Zion and to the city of the living God, the heavenly Jerusalem, and to innumerable angels. (Hebrews 12:22)
Innumerable angels means, very simply, there are just too many angels for us to count. Possibly, there are billions and billions of angels. And a third of them went willingly with Lucifer. As we know, angels were organised in a hierarchy, with archangels, seraphs and cherubs being the highest, then there were messengers from archangels, then thrones and powers, messengers from them again to dominions, principalities, fortresses, rulers and authorities, with their angels under them consisting of forces, spirits and messengers. This hierarchy was carried over to the demonic side with the angels that defected. A lot of angels and demons from various sections of the hierarchy are well known in our society today:
Ariel is the name of the angelic Principality who is over the United States, and he is known throughout the angelic world and by many international students. The demon Principality over the United States [who is equal to Ariel] is named Abaddon.
Dominions are in charge of displaced people groups, such as international students located around the world or travelers who are visiting other countries. Dominions have priority over these groups of people irrespective of where they live. Azazel (or his shortened name Azle) is a demonic Dominion over international students. He is a known author and he is openly putting his name on his writings now. There is a demon who has made himself known for thousands of years named Meccastophalese — his shortened name is Mephisto. Do you know what s amazing about this demon? He has not varied his writings at all; he has been writing exactly the same thing for thousands of years. He was busy writing meditation-like writings to the gods back in the days of the Roman Empire (pre-Messiah days); and during the Middle Ages. When the other demons adapted to fit their audience, he just kept writing the same thing. Most recently, the opera Faust, and you can rent the video-version as well, depicts the incarnation of the devil as Mephisto. I have seen this video, and you will also see that all you can expect from this loose canon is a wildly irresponsible person-demon.
Today, Meccastophalese is writing meditations to the New Age god Master Jesus, though Meccastophalese is not smart enough to vary his technique because he also writes meditations to the Scandinavian gods. Interestingly enough, he does not have to think smarter and vary his writings, because people are so unread today. Meccastophalese has written the same thing for thousands of years, and yet obviously, we do not recognize it!
There are three types of angels that work under the Thrones, Principalities, Fortresses, Dominions — and the Powers, Rulers, Authorities:
This is where the bulk of demonic activity happens. All demons — from Satan all the way down to the lowest Messenger — can indwell people, but these three ranks of demons do it most frequently. Specifically, most of the demonic impact on the world has been through demonic Forces and Spirits.
During my time in the occult, we would do some of the things that the Forces are best suited to do:
- Analyze (break down) an ideology – philosophy – theology.
- Find a human host (an unbeliever) who is best suited emotionally and morally to take on the thinking and to carry it out.
- Select a demonic Spirit who can best incorporate the ideology – philosophy – theology – into that human host.
- Send a demonic Messenger to the demonic Spirit with a message telling him which person to indwell.
As the name indicates, Forces are extremely powerful. For example, that is from where the legends of vampires (people who drink the blood of their dead victims) come — there really were vampires [particularly in Transylvania, Eastern Europe], because demonic Forces were the ones who created them. A demonic Force can animate a corpse (dead body) by effectively walking, talking, and having fluid motion, and they can keep animating it, even as the flesh is rotting and until there is no flesh left. Werewolves really exist, although not in the sense Hollywood portrays them – they are really humans who have gone so low as to have demons in them and allow these to twist their bodies to look more like the low, ferocious animals they had become.
Demonic Forces can also appear like gnomes (dwarflike creatures), elves (a kind of small magic-wielding creatures regarded either as powerful and terrifying beings, sometimes beneficent and sometimes maleficent to man), fairies (tiny supernatural beings in human form capable of harassing humans), and leprechauns (a race of elves who have hidden treasure). That is from where those legends come; individuals in isolated cultures around the world saw those creatures. I can tell you so much more, but there simply is not enough time.
Three things, or happenings, had a huge impact on me, and caused me to re-evaluate what I was doing. While travelling the spirit world one night, I came upon some people doing spiritual warfare. I realised that they were totally filled with the Holy Spirit, because they were shining like beacons, and thought-forms (or demons) were attacking them from all sides. But they had armour on, and they were swatting thought-forms aside like flies, and no demon could find a way in. There were also angels guarding these people, and this is what scared me the most. In the physical world, we can’t see angels, unless they take on the imitation of a human form. But sometimes God would lift the veil on the spiritual world and allow us to see angels as they truly are. Throughout the Bible, whenever this happened, it caused consternation and outright fear. I can’t describe what I saw, but it inspired so much awe and fear in me, that I was thrown back to my body with tremendous force. The third thing that happened was I met Heather.
At first, my “old side” tried to seduce and corrupt her, but she was persistent (as she still is!) and believed in the good in me. She, and a whole lot of other people including the very first woman in my life, my mother, has steadfastly prayed for me over the years, because although I pulled myself away from the lure of the occult, I still had a huge problem with virtually uncontrollable black anger and frustration. Through the grace of God and the ever-present Holy Spirit, I have managed to banish some of my demons, and I know that God has forgiven me some of the things I had done, after I had finally forgiven myself. I know I have a lot of work ahead of me still, but I also know now that through God, I can accomplish everything that is His will, and that I set my mind to. I kept some things over from my days with the occult – I still notice physical manifestations of demons from the corners of my eyes, and I can quickly recognise their works. I also have an uncanny ability to discern what people’s true motives and character are. I continue to pray that these are gifts from God, to be used for His work. My life has changed incredibly – I can love again with a passion, I have learned to forgive, I have learned to control my anger, and so many of my dreams and aspirations have come true, simply because I called on God for His will to be done.